Drowning in a daydream

I saw a series of bucket list photos over the net a while ago. I got addicted and thought of doing my own bucket list too. Reading the bucket list made me realize that there are so many things to do in this world. That is why whenever you get bored, try doing your bucket list one at a time 🙂

From the list that i saw over the net, below photos are the things that i have accomplished already 🙂

Done doing this last year. Literally no blanket, pillows, and whatever we use to sleep comfortably. Seeing the stars shining so bright before sleeping is the BEST sight ever. You can think about so many things while staring at the beautiful stars 🙂

I dont own an expensive car but i was able to drive one 🙂 When i went to Hongkong last year, my “then” boyf’s family owns a Maserati. He let me drive the car for 5 minutes regardless the fact that i dont have a HK license.

FIRST LOVE will always be the craziest and most impulsive love ever!

My back tattoo just turned two years old last September. I’d  love to have another one but im still cluless where and what to have.

I’ve been driving for 4 years already. In our family, its a must that you know how to drive.

Summer Romance that lasted for almost two years 🙂

I finally touched down Sydney last July with my family

Of course, with someone i love!

Scariest thing i’ve done so far!!!!

And a lot lot more i couldnt post here ha ha!

I still have an on-going list that i would love to do someday. I hope that in time, i’ll have lots of $$$ so i can make it all possible ha ha.

Few of my ULTIMATE BUCKET LIST:

It will take me a long time to finally complete my list. I want so many things in life. Its difficult to choose :))

I’ll go crazy if i wont get crazy tonight

Last night was one helluva night. Me and my loves went to Cable Car Makati for two reasons – 1. We want to Beer Pong and 2. to celebrate Garrette’s Birthday Eve.

Ever since we graduated, we automatically retired from doing kid stuff and slowly began doing what a usual ‘Yuppie’ would do- Work (find a satisfying career), Responsible partying (which means getting drunk at night but make sure to do your agenda the next day, no matter what!), and lots of coffee and tea sessions instead of going to disco bars. Getting wasted and doing stupid things are now for the younger generation haha —- been there, done that.

So anyway, last night we wanted to feel young again, oooppsss (we’re still young by the way) i meant, we wanted to go back to our highschool ways– To have Pure fun and be careless. What made last night happier was the fact that the dolls were almost complete (sans E, N, and K) its okay though because in our barkada, they are the good girls and we’re the opposite (including Rian but she’s in the states now) ha ha.

Last night Garrette finally introduced Homer, her new Boyfriend. I am really happy for her because Homer knows and accepts the “real” Garrette. Nice pick biatch! Ha ha.

First game of the night: Table Soccer

Sorry guys, Camille and I actually make up a good team! We won several times, you may call it “Tyamba” but i call it “Strategy” 🙂

More pictures from last night. I also miss hanging out with Cent, Cholo, Daboy, and Denreb. It was also nice meeting Cent’s friends (i forgot their names) Well nothing is really new, i am the most forgetful person when it comes to names, well except if i find the person interesting. I dont know if i should tell but i remembered only one name introduced to me last night haha but i am not telling who 🙂

Second game of the night: BEER PONG. Denreb and I won the first and second set, after that, i surrendered. I could not drink too many beers last night because i am driving everyone home. Grace, Garrette, Homer played the third and fourth game against Eric and Errol. I would like to give credits to Grace for playing Beer Pong so well!!! Hands Down!!!

Should i mention here that the birthday girl passed out? Hahaha okay i just did. Eric was so drunk last night too. You know what makes me laugh so hard? When Eric and Garrette bully each other. These two people can really really really make me laugh without the need to exert so much effort. I love you guys!

It was a fun-filled night indeed until something happened at past 4am. I am not spilling but just take it from here —-> “When drunk, ALWAYS control yourself. Just have FUN and dont ruin everyone’s mood”

So there… GIRLS JUST WANNA HAVE FUN 🙂 I will see all my loves again tomorrow night for Garrette’s real celebration at Distillery. 

Love, B.

We found LOVE in a hopeless case

I’ve seen this music video of Rihanna two weeks ago and i fell in love with it. It has got to be my favourite music video of her to date. The video shows how much two person can be beautifully crazy in love regardless if it is right or wrong. Some finds the video too vulgar and liberated, so i actually searched over the net about the idea of this video.

Matsoukas explained the content of the video in an interview with MTV:

“We love, obviously, to do provocative imagery … we always try to definitely push the limits … I think because, in the end, it’s not really at all about domestic violence. It’s really just about it being toxic, and they’re on this drug trip and that definitely plays a part, but I think it’s also about being triumphant over those weaknesses, and she leaves him. It’s not trying to glorify that type of relationship. The bad parts of it, that’s what you don’t want. In the end, her leaving, it represents her getting that out of her life. The drugs and the addiction and the toxic — that’s what brings her downfall and brings a lot of harm”

“[The song’s] totally rave-y … and that’s the feeling, just music rushing over you, and then I started thinking about drugs and addiction and love and how that’s an addiction … we’ve all lived the ups and downs of being in a toxic relationship. It’s really about the obstacles of trying to let it go, but at the same time how great it makes you feel, so it’s hard to let it go. Again, it goes back to a story that we all can relate to”

After reading his statement, nothing i could say better. I like his idea. The scenes and emotions in the video couldnt leave my mind. Its addicting.

Another thing i like about this video was the monologue given about love and heartbreak by an unseen narrator. It says..

It’s like you’re screaming but no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important, that without them, you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you. And when it’s over and it’s gone, you almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back so you can have the good.”

Maybe above all the reasons why i like the song and the music video is that I felt nostalgic, a time from the past when i was beautifully crazy in love with a particular person. But i guess, just like rihanna (from the video), in the end, i was able to find my identity and self worth.  Glad its over and done (”,)

Thoughts and words into my clouded mind were left unspoken

I am so happy to finally have my very own wordpress account. You know, i’ve been religously tweeting (on twitter) about everything under the sun and i have been religously posting entries on tumblr… but i never get satisfied. From now on, this is gonna be my outlet 🙂

Three Action Plans: 1. I create myself 2. Write about it 3. and Learn from it

Love, B.